My Tiny Reality
A blog about reality, dreams, and the space between.
My current view every morning.
What may be perceived as a negative experience becomes a blessing when it pushes you into the direction of new experiences you may not have had with the “negative” experience. This is an idea I have read and learned about but could not fully integrate in my system of beliefs until my current experiences with my knee injuries. I reached the pinnacle of this painful journey in the past week when I strained some muscles around my right hip causing me quite a bit of pain and to walk very very slowly. The pain went away and my left knee started feeling way better. Then out of nowhere my right knee started swelling in a similar way to the left when it was first injured. Again I was in a lot of pain and had to walk very very slowly. The pain subsided and now both knees have similar ranges of limited motion and I’m dealing with two torn meniscus. I was planning on getting surgery on my left knee but something inside me was not ready to get drilled into and telling me to be patient and first try other ways of healing that might help. So tomorrow I have my first acupuncture session and will see how it might be able to help blood flow into my meniscus better to heal the tears. Some people might think I’m crazy for not going through with the surgery and to them I say my heart is what I follow and until it says surgery it aint happening.
The whole message of this injury has been for me to slow down. After all these recent developments I am finally listening. I’m not rushing through making my lanterns, or trying to come up with all kinds of new yoga classes, and trying to fill up all the free time I have. I’m giving myself the chance to just stop and literally do nothing, not even meditate, or do yoga. To do the things I love, to feed my heart and soul. To learn, listen, and open.
The new direction I have been pushed in is chanting along with Krishna Das on my way to and from work. This summer an intuitive healer sensed I was not expressing myself vocally in a close relationship. I wasn’t entirely sure what relationship that was until now. As crazy as it might sound to some people it is my relationship to the divine that I wasn’t vocally expressing myself in. I feel a strong and undeniable love for what yoga has brought to my life and to chant the names of Krishna and Ram I feel I am finally able to express the love and gratitude for what yoga has brought to me. If it weren’t for my knee injuries I would still be doing my asana practice and wouldn’t have been pushed to a practice of chanting, and the love I have would have been left unexpressed. This is how my injuries are a blessing. I’m no longer resisting and am now embracing. Spring is coming! Peace!
A woman who attended my Yin class on Sunday asked if I could share some of my thoughts on meditative spaces with her. I think she’s writing a thesis or something on them. I had good fun writing it! Check it out yo.
It is the individual that makes a space meditative, not the space. The individuals life experiences and preferences determine what space resonates with them, thus bringing them into a meditative state. Someone who likes simplicity and order might prefer a more zen styled space to be in. An artists studio might be very messy but they feel more comfortable easing into a meditative state in what would be perceived as chaos to others. It may only be like this in the beginning for a some new practitioners. As meditation becomes more natural this state becomes achievable no matter the space. There is definitely a collective agreement on what is considered a conducive space in which to meditate. These spaces aid the meditator in revealing their ever present stillness and are most often a reflection of the simplicity and beauty of this stillness. For example, nature is what we are made of (a reflection) so when most people go for a walk or hike in the woods they go with the intention of connecting with themselves and the beauty all around them. Staring off in the distance at the seemingly endless rows of mountainous terrain will bring almost anyone into a meditative state. This is also perhaps one of the reasons the great sages of India chose to make their homes in the Himalayas, because it is a reflection of the un-struck beauty inside of us.
When a group of people get together to meditate in their chosen space it aids those present in deepening their meditation because the electromagnetic fields around us changes our state of mind and heart change. These fields are constantly around us and interacting with others. This is why you can feel the energy in a room pickup when a very jovial person enters. The group energy not only aids everyone present, but depending on the length and quality of the mediation there will be a residual effect of the meditative energy on the room thus allowing anyone who enters to more easily tap into their own meditative self. This energy gives them a sort of guide to follow in entering their meditation.
A space can “make” someone meditative, but it is always the individual choosing to use the space as a permission slip to enter a meditative state.
today is the day,
tomorrow is the day,
the one before,
after it and the one
Like a well trained pup.
Always ready and waiting
to play and never stop.
And for its belly to be rubbed.